The Barrow

We can disagree about exactly where the line lies between the darkness and the light, we can disagree about the existence of a neutral earthly realm between the two antipodes, and we can disagree about how prevalent evil is. We can no longer, however, disagree about the existence of evil and its stranglehold on the world. We can no longer disagree about which side of this divide we should find ourselves on.

I made a remark many years ago that I enjoyed when fictional conflicts which begin with nuance distill into a cosmic battle of good vs. evil. Well, here we go.

In the wake of the disgusting, vile revelations of the past few weeks, there will be a feverish response all over the world which will take generations to soothe.

Unfortunately, the primary reaction has been antisemitism and extreme sex-negativity (which are both trends that have been going on for some time now)

We can focus on the evil of Israel, the billionaire class, human trafficking, and the horrific things which have been taking place without devolving into these though-terminating stupidities.

I know I'm not the first one to have this thought, but it's kind of fucked that as the world burns around us, we still have to go to work, pay our bills, and play nice. There is a part of me that appreciates this, but another part that would prefer the whole system to just come tumbling down already.

Instead, we have to try to focus at work while facing the great unknowable void of the future.

I feel like I live in a completely different world than I did two months ago. I had always suspected that the rulers of our world were bunker-dwelling, child-sacrificing, cannibalistic, pedophilic lizard people, but it's a very strange feeling to have these suspicions, which were always the most frige of ideas, espoused by tinfoil-hat-wearing weirdoes on late-night conspiracy AM radio, confirmed.

If anything, though, it's somewhat of a return to form, for me. Before college, I was a very spiritual believer in these types of things. My time in college brainwashed me into the woke crowd as is so often the case, but since leaving college, as if a spell had been lifted, I found myself slowly returning to my senses, just like the slow return of feeling after a dental procedure.

However, I digress. The revelations of the past month alone have been world-shattering in an almost Lovecraftian way. It is almost more confusing now that this information is out. In this way, it's not dissimilar to the UFO-related revelations that came to light several years ago. Hearing a sitting member of Congress ask in a hearing about the death of Boeing contractors who were working on a mysterious “cube” sent shudders down my spine. Not only because some of my worst fears have now been somewhat confirmed, but because of the new questions which have emerged.

Back when we all knew the powers-that-be were covering lots of things up, things were almost simpler. However, now that they've let a lot of this information out, it begs the question: why? In addition, the fact that these world-changing confirmations have changed nothing seems to be the most disturbing piece of information of all. What's their angle?

In days long past, I would have consulted the very same tilfoil-hat-wearing weirdoes on late night AM radio. I lament to say that this seems to have been such a Boomer phenomenon that these people are so stuck in their ways that they would rather discuss Mothman than these truly horrific conspiracies which have been confirmed before our very eyes.

Perhaps I'll find something good online, but I remain skeptical.

I wanted to believe until things were confirmed. Now I want to forget.

Over the past few days I have been exploring the internet in general but also Geminispace in particular quite heavily in a revival of my love of internet exploration. This has been quite nice and has helped reconnect me to my younger self quite a lot.

I first became a heavy internet user in 2004. Obviously the internet was very different then. I always felt that perhaps the coolest, most interesting thing I had ever seen would just be one or two links away. I did find a lot of cool things, some of which remain relevant but most of which do not. For example, Elfwood is gone, while DeviantArt remains a large art community (though it too is quite different from how it was in 2004...) Most of the gaming and anime fansites I used to frequent in the 2000s are gone, yet Reddit remains (though it is a ridiculous caricature of its former self).

There's still a lot out there. Not everything is on five or six sites.

Here's a good jumping-off point...

That's what 'Zeitgeist' means, by the way.

I spend a lot of time thinking about how various places and times felt. Today this was prompted by discovering the album Lair of the Dragon by Wolf and Raven. It took me into an oldschool weeb place I really enjoy that got me thinking about how awesome it was to be a nerdy weeb in 2004. Maybe that's just nostalgia, but it seemed to be the peak of that subculture, before oversaturation and collapse.

This is but one timeghost I frequently miss. I miss being an optimistic schoolchild in the 90s, a bearded hipster in the 2010s. Who knows what I've been in the 2020s. This timeghost has been hostile and difficult.

Maybe I'll miss it too?

I think this is the most frustrating thing about living in [current year] but it's also perhaps the biggest indication that someone is truly a differentiated person in the Evolian sense.

There are only a handful of worldviews that the post/modern machine considers acceptable (though perhaps a few more are being added) and they are all wrong. This was as true now as it was in the 1940s and before.

Some of these worldviews may occasionally get something right, but this is paid for in so many things that are wrong.

I tend to agree with many of the conclusions left-wingers come to for completely different reasons (which of course results in several disagreements about conclusions as well) and I tend to disagree with the conclusions of many right-wingers despite seeing and sympathizing with much of the reasoning which took them to this point. Of course both of these camps harbor so much unrepentant stupidity that it's difficult to spend more than a fleeting moment in them. However, that is a personal failing. The stupidity of others shouldn't even phase me.

In addition, the machine will trudge on in its destruction like something evil out of Tolkien until the ents are awoken to crush it all.

It can be difficult, but I find comfort in knowing that nothing actually happens which isn't in fact Dharmic. The Kali Yuga itself, even as a period where Dharma is weak, is Dharmic. The tiger is not to be slain, but ridden. There will be small outbursts of energies which are more or less Dharmic than others, or belong to various aspects of Divinity, but it all takes place upon the Dharmic wheel.

It was all written. All of this has happened before and all of this will happen again.

All of creation is music manifest. We talk about “vibrations,” “resonance,” “frequencies,” etc. in new age spirituality, while traditional spiritualities have always upheld this. Even in new myth such as the Silmarillion, this is true. In physics, we find this to be true.

Sometimes this is conflated with “word” but the distinction between speech and song is stronger today than it was in ancient times. Even today we say “A Song of Ice and Fire” or “The Song of Hildebrand,” “The Song of Solomon,” etc. etc.

Music can be represented geometrically and therein one can see many of the repeating patterns of the cosmos itself.

In Vedic traditions, and the traditions downstream from them, the primordial syllable of the universe is Om or Aum. This is quite literally a magic word and chanting it during meditation is especially powerful.

Reality follows thought and speech, not the other way around. Realize this, and many windows of possibility shall open.

Nobody really has the right idea today about tribes, ethnicities, or peoples.

It has nothing to do with nation-states. The English are not called English because they come from England. England is called England because it is the land populated by the English. So much modern shitlibbery seems to water this down to meaninglessness.

Likewise, these things are not completely determined by blood or race. In addition, it also doesn't warrant any sort of ethnic cleansing or genocide, by any means.

That being said, nation-states and peoples should be able to defend and define themselves. It shouldn't be a cardinal sin to say Poland should be the best place in the world for Poles to live, or whatever.

Everyone, left and right, are so far up their own asses on this. There is so much blatant retardation you can't even have a conversation about it.

You can say you aren't a Jew without hating Jews.

Get a brain, morans.

I feel the Powers that Be are aggressively trying to bring about the Christian endtimes from Revelation. So many of their actions seem to line right up with it with disturbing detail. Perhaps the rather detailed Christian prophecy is just as accurate as many of the others. Or perhaps they are simply mistaken. Who knows.

It certainly does suggest a ruling cabal with nefarious intent directs this world...